hey from MS

well, guys, hope this works. never blogged before. i finally got my local email hooked up so i havent been able to keep up with everyone. i went back and read the past posts to catch up.

i have been working in cv surgery since 7 jan with direct supervision from the 65 yo pa who is supposed to retire in july. i work for one surgeon at one hospital so i am on call 24/7 but hardly ever get called out. most of our cases i know at least a day ahead of time. i am lucky because i only work in surgery. the doc has an np that does all his clinic preop and postop. i have already forgotten all my h&p skills. amazing how quickly you lose stuff.

i am starting to get a little frustrated because the 65 yo pa is not relinquishing control. now he is talking about only partly retiring. i have no need and no niche. i love everyone i work with except the surgeon. he's weird. just started making eye contact ever so slightly with me a few weeks ago and just said my name for the first time today. unfortunately i will have to have a closed door meeting with him on monday about the whole situation with the old pa. they need to let me work, pa needs to step out, doc needs to start communicating with me or he needs to let me find some other area to work before i get too deep in this. the whole situation has made me a little disillusioned about my profession and choice to go back to school so late in life.

sorry to be bitchin but i guess i need to vent to people who might understand. everything will be alright i am sure. all else is great. ross is still flying with the air guard. spent to whole month of feb in guam and glad to have him back. bo just turned 3. going on 15. all of a sudden he has started getting sassy but he is still so much fun. we are remodeling our lake house one room at a time and should have everything complete in month. the rest of the house is in shambles but ross and i share the same bed every night which is much better than the last 2 1/2 years.

so glad everyone else is doing well. take care.